Suicide Through a Child's Eyes

This is a story I want to share with you written by:TheDotMack

I woke up, just another day as a 12 year old boy. I was living with my mother at the time, a few days after my parents first separated. I was in limbo, waiting to move in with my Father, the healthier, more stable parent of the two.

My mother was sick her entire life; mentally ill and emotionally insecure - she never had the strength to live life on life terms the way I’ve learned to today. Being 12 years old, the only thing I knew was what I experienced in my immediate family unit, I didn’t know the difference between healthy and unhealthy relationships because I was only presented with the unhealthy.

For some reason or another, whether it be her marriage ending, her maddening depression, or who knows what, my mother cried out for help. She put a knife to her throat and exclaimed “Why don’t you love me!”

This picture in my mind is very clear. I can remember seeing cuts on my mothers wrists for years and years and was haunted by this memory for a long time, before I went to treatment and started working a program to deal with it.

My sister, 15 years old at the time, had to call the police to intervene. She surely wasn’t strong enough to deal with the weight of my mother’s life on her hands, and I surely wasn’t strong enough either. Thank god my sister took that immediate action - I treasured the years I’ve had with my mother since then, albeit rocky, but still very important in my life.

You may have seen an email, a banner ad, and a bunch of posts on InTheRooms.com and our Facebook page about the organization, “To Write Love On Her Arms.” This organization is currently the front runner in the “Chase Community Giving” contest being held on Facebook this week, with a chance to win $1,000,000.

Their plan is to develop a website called IMALIVE, a place online where people can go 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year, and speak to certified crisis prevention counselors via instant message. A large portion of the money won from Chase Community Giving will be used to train and certify people to answer messages on IMALIVE. At InTheRooms.com, we know the power of the internet can be used to change lives, we know it can be easier to send a message online than it is to make a phone call or speak to someone in person, and we know that this can make a significant impact on the world.

This cause is very close to my heart - no one should ever live without hope.

The After Effects

Well, it's been awhile, so let me catch you up on things. Back in September, I had like 10 teeth pulled and got temporary dentures. The reason for this , is because when smoke crack, that fire is so hot, it's like pouring acid on your teeth. It makes them rot, from the inside out. They crumble into little pieces.

So now, the few teeth I have left, are now doing the same thing, so I'm going to have them pull the remaining 14 teeth that I have and get full dentures, so I don't have to worry about any more. It will be so nice to have a full mouth of teeth again.

As for life in general, I'm doing great and staying clean!

What is Borderline Personalty Disorder?

What is Borderline personality Disorder?

Straight from Wikipedia:
Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a psychiatric diagnosis in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV Personality Disorders 301.83)[1] that describes a prolonged disturbance of personality function characterized by depth and variability of moods.[2] The disorder typically involves unusual levels of instability in mood; "black and white" thinking, or "splitting"; chaotic and unstable interpersonal relationships, self-image, identity, and behavior; as well as a disturbance in the individual's sense of self. In extreme cases, this disturbance in the sense of self can lead to periods of dissociation.[3] These disturbances can have a pervasive negative impact on many or all of the psychosocial facets of life. This includes difficulties maintaining relationships in work, home and social settings. Attempted suicide and completed suicide are possible outcomes, especially without proper care and effective therapy.[4]

Onset of symptoms typically occurs during adolescence or young adulthood. Symptoms may persist for several years, but the majority of symptoms lessen in severity over time,[4] with some individuals fully recovering. The mainstay of treatment is various forms of psychotherapy, although medication and other approaches may also improve symptoms. While borderline personality disorder can manifest itself in children and teenagers, therapists are discouraged from diagnosing anyone before the age of 18, due to adolescence and a still-developing personality.

There are some instances when BPD can be evident and diagnosed before the age of 18. The DSM-IV states: “To diagnose a personality disorder in an individual under 18 years, the features must have been present for at least 1 year.” In other words, it is possible to diagnose borderline personality disorder in children and teens, but only if the symptoms have been present, continuously, for over a year.

There is some evidence that BPD diagnosed in adolescence is consistent in adulthood. It is possible that the diagnosis, if applicable, would be helpful in creating a more effective treatment plan for the child or teen.[5][6]

As with other mental disorders, the causes of BPD are complex and unknown.[7] One finding is a history of childhood trauma (possibly child sexual abuse),[8] although researchers have suggested diverse possible causes, such as a genetic predisposition, neurobiological factors, environmental factors, or brain abnormalities.[7] The prevalence of BPD in the United States has been calculated as 1 percent to 3 percent of the adult population,[7] with approximately 75 percent of those diagnosed being female.[9] It has been found to account for 20 percent of psychiatric hospitalizations. Common comorbid (co-occurring) conditions are mental disorders such as substance abuse, depression and other mood, and personality disorders. BPD is one of four diagnoses classified as "cluster B" ("dramatic-erratic") personality disorders typified by disturbances in impulse control and emotional dysregulation, the others being narcissistic, histrionic, and antisocial personality disorders.[10]

The term borderline, although it was used in this context as early as the 17th century, was employed by Adolph Stern in 1938 to describe a condition as being on the borderline between neurosis and psychosis. Because the term no longer reflects current thinking, there is an ongoing debate concerning whether this disorder should be renamed.[7] There is related concern that the diagnosis stigmatizes people, usually women, and supports pejorative and discriminatory practices.[11]

People suffering from borderline personality disorder and their families often feel the hardships are compounded by a lack of clear diagnoses, effective treatments, and accurate information. At their request, the U.S. House of Representatives unanimously declared the month of May as Borderline Personality Disorder Awareness Month (H. Res. 1005, 4/1/08), citing BPD’s "prevalence, enormous public health costs, and ... devastating toll on individuals, families, and communities."








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What it's like to live with BPD

Do you know someone that has Borderline Personality Diorder? Do you even understand what it's like for a day in life of a person with BPD? Please watch this video so you can see for yourself and tell me what you think .

Freedom and what it means to an addict

Freedom, what does it mean to an recovering addict? It's the liberation from or restraint or from the power of another. Where it no longer controls you or has a hold on you. Recovery does bring freedom! Too reach recovery, you must first admit to being an addict and that you need help. What's the saying,"The truth shall set you free"! A sympton of our disease is alienation, and honest sharing will free us to recover. Truth coneects us to life while fear, isolation, and dishonesty alienate us from it. As addicts, we hide the truth about ourselves from as much as the world as possible, that fear keeps us from opening up to those around us, providing us with protection. Truth is my connection to reality, so today I will ask myself,"Am I telling the truth?".

There is a way to get some help and still be kinda of annonomous, if thats the way you want it or just not quite ready to tell the whole world and it's called," In the Rooms", a global recovery community. In The Rooms, you can Find Old Friends,
Make New Friends, Seek Help in Recovery,
Create a Group, Learn about Recovery,
Choose Your Level of Privacy,
and much more... and yes, I'm also a member!
It's a global community, but started here in south Florida with some big names attached to it. Their motto is HITCH=Help Inform Touch Connect Heal. This is a disease that needs alot more attention drawn to it and education. And thats what they're trying to do.

On September 12, 2009, in Bicentennial Park in Miami, FL, InTheRooms.com and Informed Families will make the first attempt in South Florida to counter the stigma of alcoholism and addiction that plagues not only those in Recovery, but the entire community as well. This is going to be a spectacular event. The day begins with a 5K walk, to be followed by an all day festival and concert, featuring Richie Supa of Aerosmith fame, and Rock ‘n’ Roll Hall of Fame Legend Eric Burdon and The Animals. All funds raised go to prevention, awareness, and education for the Recovery community, to show that Recovery is an asset, not a liability. Registration for the walk requires a donation of $9 per walker and includes admission to the festival and concert; those who wish to only attend the concert are asked to donate $20.

We do not wish to be viewed any longer as the guy in the park drinking out of the paper bag, or the person living under the bridge begging for change. We are young and old; we are male and female, we are your family, friends, neighbors, teachers, doctors, lawyers. We are all recovering from a disease that is chronic, progressive, and potentially fatal; yet we are productive members of society, we are good, decent, spiritually healthy people who know there is a solution to living life clean and sober. Just like those marching for breast cancer awareness, we too are survivors. This is not a cause, this is a movement!

Please join us September 12 for this revolutionary event, and if you can’t make it down to Miami, you can still make a tax deductible donation at www.rallyforrecovery.org in order to enable someone else to walk in your place.